Chapter I ~
I could still remember the first time I heard him play the song on his guitar.
It was the song that made me fall in love with him instantly and the song which I have to admit, saved me.
It was the song that made me fall in love with him instantly and the song which I have to admit, saved me.
To be honest, when I first saw him, I never really found him attractive in the sense of personality.
However now that I think about it, I understood more the reasons why people liked him.
And also the reasons which made me like him...
However now that I think about it, I understood more the reasons why people liked him.
And also the reasons which made me like him...
It wasn't because he was good looking or because he was good at sports. It was because he was a good person.
Kind hearted.
Thoughtful... He was the perfect person. The perfect guy.
Kind hearted.
Thoughtful... He was the perfect person. The perfect guy.
And that guy, was the guy who made me realise the beauties of life.
The one that got me to experience what the world has to offer.
The one who helped me get through everything that I found difficult.
Everything that I found fearful and had no idea how to get over, he made me get through with it.
The one that got me to experience what the world has to offer.
The one who helped me get through everything that I found difficult.
Everything that I found fearful and had no idea how to get over, he made me get through with it.
He was my guardian angel. My saviour...
Chapter II ~
I could remember walking down the school corridors quietly.
Enjoying the soft, calm breeze coming from the open windows.
It was already 4:30pm yet I was still in school.
I could remember having a particular reason on why I decided to stay in that particular day.
To be honest, I actually rarely stay after school.
Normally, I would just go over to the library or out at the park.
There was something about that day that made me think of how I was. How everything was laid in front of me...
Laid in front of my eyes.
How did I manage to cope with it?
I don't really know why but, It felt like i've changed from how I used to be in the past.
There is something different about me now than before.
I didn't know what it was or why it was.
I could only think of what's happening then and there.
People have always asked me,
"How can you always smile at everything?"
"How can you be so happy, don't you ever have troubles?"
Well... Just to let you know...
The reason why I was and am still able to smile like this is because I never think of my troubles.
There never came a time where I was able to talk to someone about what I felt or what I was going through.
No one was ever there to actually fully understand my pains.
It's not that i'm antisocial. I just don't like being the person to approach another.
I don't lack confidence. There was just no one there to talk to.
That was probably the reason why I was always lonely...
Enjoying the soft, calm breeze coming from the open windows.
It was already 4:30pm yet I was still in school.
I could remember having a particular reason on why I decided to stay in that particular day.
To be honest, I actually rarely stay after school.
Normally, I would just go over to the library or out at the park.
There was something about that day that made me think of how I was. How everything was laid in front of me...
Laid in front of my eyes.
How did I manage to cope with it?
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I don't really know why but, It felt like i've changed from how I used to be in the past.
There is something different about me now than before.
I didn't know what it was or why it was.
I could only think of what's happening then and there.
People have always asked me,
"How can you always smile at everything?"
"How can you be so happy, don't you ever have troubles?"
Well... Just to let you know...
The reason why I was and am still able to smile like this is because I never think of my troubles.
There never came a time where I was able to talk to someone about what I felt or what I was going through.
No one was ever there to actually fully understand my pains.
It's not that i'm antisocial. I just don't like being the person to approach another.
I don't lack confidence. There was just no one there to talk to.
That was probably the reason why I was always lonely...
Chapter 3 ~
I could remember the times when I was younger and my father used to take me to the fair.
I remember him lifting me up on his shoulders so that i could get a better view of the whole park.
Just thinking about it, all the faces that I have seen was full of sadness.
Out of all the smiles those people behind the vendors and the rides, only one gave a real smile...
Her smile was sweet and big.
It wasn't a creepy smile...
But it was the smile that was of pure kindness.
The one that made you feel like you've know her for a long time....
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I tried to avoid myself from being seen by him.
It was pretty embarrassing if I just randomly clapped or told him that what he was playing was good.
But still...
He still managed to see me.
He managed to find a way of seeing me.
I could remember just staring at him, feeling a slight panic build up inside of me.
And yet, I didn't move or didn't say anything.
It wasn't a creepy smile...
But it was the smile that was of pure kindness.
The one that made you feel like you've know her for a long time....
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I tried to avoid myself from being seen by him.
It was pretty embarrassing if I just randomly clapped or told him that what he was playing was good.
But still...
He still managed to see me.
He managed to find a way of seeing me.
I could remember just staring at him, feeling a slight panic build up inside of me.
And yet, I didn't move or didn't say anything.
He paused from playing his guitar, looked up and gave me a slight smile.
That was when I remembered the time that I was at the fun fair with my dad.
We would go over and walk around the fair, holding hands. His hands were big and they felt rough, which I would say is pretty typical for someone who was of his age.
My dad would buy me a small cheese burger from the burger stand and the woman who served us always had such a sweet smile.
However, behind that smile that she gave, I always felt some sense of insecurity. Loneliness.
I felt that she had been suffering from something painful. Not physically, but emotionally.
That she was carrying a heavy burden upon herself ,yet she whatever she did, she could not get rid of it...
That was what I felt when I saw his smile.
It was at an instant that I felt such remorse and a glimpse of sadness came over me.
That was when I suddenly...
That was when I remembered the time that I was at the fun fair with my dad.
We would go over and walk around the fair, holding hands. His hands were big and they felt rough, which I would say is pretty typical for someone who was of his age.
My dad would buy me a small cheese burger from the burger stand and the woman who served us always had such a sweet smile.
However, behind that smile that she gave, I always felt some sense of insecurity. Loneliness.
I felt that she had been suffering from something painful. Not physically, but emotionally.
That she was carrying a heavy burden upon herself ,yet she whatever she did, she could not get rid of it...
That was what I felt when I saw his smile.
It was at an instant that I felt such remorse and a glimpse of sadness came over me.
That was when I suddenly...
Chapter 4 ~
That was when I suddenly came over to him and suddenly gave him a hug.
Even I personally thought that this was unexpected.
Even I personally thought that this was unexpected.
I even felt tears run down my cheek.
I didn't even know the reason but it was just something in his smile that made me feel so down.
The song that he was playing on the guitar was mellow but that wasn't what made me cry.
... It was him.
I knew that it was him. That he was the one that is only able to understand the way that I am
I knew that it was him. That he was the one that is only able to understand the way that I am
